Want or Don't Want

Is it the same with both also have a word 'want' inside? Sometimes why we said want but God heard wrongly that we said don't want. When we said DON'T WANT for GOD sake, God think we desperately want it that much. Isn't it happens to all of us most of the time. Think it...

1) I duwan fail >>> FAIL you go
2) I want to get an A >>> B you go
3) I duwan to think it anymore >>> the more you will think actually
4) I want to remember what I've studied >>> You remember nothing in exam.
5) I duwan your help >>> Suddenly people are so helpful
6) I want to forget it ASAP >>> You remember back everything ASAP
7) I duwan be late to class today >>> You surely will late again
8) I want to find a new gf/bf >>> end up being can't find anyone
9) I duwan to have a relationship >>> Suddenly cupid is following you everywhere you go.

Seventh Heaven VS 18th Level of Hell

WHO is more POWERFUL here? Will you take a risk to change your life rather than live in the middle forever. Pay the price and you will know. The price is not cheap and it's not expensive either. Is something money can't buy

yesterday, today, tomorrow

Everyone is unique even ourself. If yesterday I told you I'm sad. If today I tell you I'm down. If tomorrow I telling you I'm moody. You will only know I'm not happy. You think there is no changes but actually it has a huge difference. Sometimes expression and feeling can't be measure like mathematics to tell you. No words is close enough to give any definition.

AsK FoR LeSS

STOP right now, thank you very much. Who like being sad? Who like being down? Who like being moody? It's not a good feeling and wish to stop it too but somehow not everything in this world is under our control. Again, Time Will Tell

L I F E in L O VE

Someone told me that although we know Love is very complicated but we still fall for it. Why? My answer is Life is a straight line without Love. Love gives us ups and downs like roller coaster. It makes our Life more colorful. Sometimes Love cost you a bitter taste. If so, time is the best medicine to cure you. Don't be afraid of this taste, Who doesn't experience it? Just a matter of sooner or later. Be someone special by doing something special. Love make your life special. You are special in front of your partner. You feel special like no other. An ordinary person will not experience it. Isn't it worth for everything?

Pr I vacy

Sometimes human need some privacy. Do not control too much even dreams also you get in.

3 seconds Vs 3 Years

3 seconds looks short while 3 years looks long. However, I think sometimes 3 seconds might be worth than 3 years. I got nothing out from 3 years. From 3 years, I got really nothing because I've been foolish. I should know time frame is not a factor for you to see things and expect things. At least 3 seconds give me no hard feeling. I don't even know anything when it pass by. It is a lot better rather than what 3 years will leave for me.

September

What a lovely month. I'm not referring to September 16. That's got nothing to do with me. I'm referring to September 26. A memorable day for the rest of my life. It is the day which gave me all the taste of life. Fill me up with so many things. Should I say thanks? Tell me.

History>> A rubbish subject

We learn in school that whoever doesn't remember history, tend to repeat it. This is a total rubbish and crap. We tend to live in the past for history. We should learn how to get into future not wondering the past. Stupid subject brain washing us with stupid thinking and now we are far behind others because we love staying at the back with all those so called 'history'

Another thing is, 'history' is something created by some very brilliant intellectual. It is for a man in power either a government, a nation or a kingdom to ERASE the truth and REPLACE it with what he think it is right. What is REPLACE today becomes HISTORY tomorrow and it becomes REALITY in future. Your kind-hearted teacher will spread his/her knowledge to all of you. Congrats, that you have got another A in your exam

Facial Expression

I should learn fortune telling. The most important and useful part for me which is face telling. I need to see who is the devil within the best dressed angel skin.

YOU got a PIECE of ME

Congratulations to you for successfully having a piece of me. A very important part of me but it is not forever. Wound can cure. I learn this since the very first day I learn to walk and I fell, I stand up and walk again and it's hurting. It's really hurt but I learn how to walk til this very second.

Money Can Buy What? What Can Money Buy?

Sometimes I think that money is not important compare to the bond of love and friendship. Anything affected by money is simply means not true enough or not strong enough. I have to agree with the HK top criminal 'This world is all about money". People say money is not everything, I think money is almost everything. Money can buy almost all the things in the world just the matter of the value. Money can buy a human (baby/human trafficking), Money can buy health (doing surgery and seeking doctor is very expensive), Money can buy love (nobody will marry a poor with now people looking for 5C and 5M and etc), Money can buy Life (mafia do this), Money can buy you happiness ( I don't know is this true but without money surely unhappy), Money can buy you time (don't have to work OT, without having taking slow public transport), Money can buy you Datukship (in Malaysia is yes), Money can buy dignity (even a salesman talk gently to you), Money can buy friends (of course, but not a TRUE 1), Money can buy you education (going study overseas rather than work right after secondary school), Isn't it everything? This world rotate because there is something call money. We are born to look for money till the day we die. We work from young till old for that reason too. We study hard since young just to equip ourself to find bigger money. Our life is control by money. Life without money is when you are R.I.P. That's the time when you have no relation to it...Ops. actually although you are but your family have to bear the cost of funeral. Even after death can spend money. Is this a joke. Not it isn't. As some says 'Do not die if you don't have enough money' or 'Have time to die, don't have time to sick' >>>medical is truly expensive

Feeling Weak

Learn not to cry since small, I thought I was tough. This is a real test to me. I never feel this weak before. However, I hope I can learn something from it. This is something will happened in matter of time. I need to be strong, perhaps stronger. It is the end. Human are materialistic. Human show the face of devil once is at your back...

Please Accept It

Why still feeling undecided? Its becomes history this very moment. It is reality for now and future. You have to learn on how to accept it.

NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE

This saying is good and it make sense. It gives a really positive side to people who read it. It is real and will happen. However, to make it more realistic, I think nothing is impossible but mostly impossible remains impossible...

FiNal Exam-31 hours remaining-

Haven start study anything at all, Where are all my notes? What are coming out? How the questions will be like? What is the format? I still have no IDEA on it...Maybe I have the information but just haven organize and process from my brain...so I am being honest, I really haven start to study at all. why no people believing me?

Vitamin C+

Once, one of my friends tell me that as we grow and grow, we got less and less TRUE friend. I agree with her. Why in this world TRUE friends is so little?

Cruel is Good

Sometimes I think I have to be cold blood enough and cruel a bit so I can forget all unhappiness. Don't ever look back. Don't ever remember back.

Cheap

Just by receiving a little present can have someone to do anything without reason? corrupted mind...I don't know there are these type of person in this world...

Final Y2S1

I'm in year two already. Industrial training just 3 months ahead but I feel I'm not prepared for all this yet. Final exam few days left but I haven't start revision and do not have any picture on the exam at all. Not even the format. Maybe I not keen to know at all. Exam is nothing hard but getting a good grade in exam is what making it so tough. Every exam I will promised myself to start working hard but this courage words, I will delay for next semester and so on. Never change.

at LAST

Finally unsettle stuff related to my job are getting done TODAY after haunting me for about 1 year. Have to give myself a credit for the determination in making things done although has been draggy.

Blocker & Blogger

I'm both. I'm forced to do so. I have reasons for doing this !!!

Wake Me Up When September Ends

I hope I can out of this by the end of this September. I want to settle all this once and for all. Is it too late? Will I regret for being to late to take action?

Trust

I put my trust in you, but you proved to me that I couldn't trust you anymore. You are no either better than me. You are just like me. Please stop pretending. At least I won't be like what you doing now. Just show your TRUE colour. This is not the first day I know you. I know you better than any other did. You can fool the whole world but NOT me

Back to the future ? Go to the future?

Do not look back. Look front !!! But what is the meaning in future if someone do not have past? However past do not help you in order for you to have future. You want to live in past or you think past will have you to have better future? Buddha, Give me a hint !!! Give me a sign !!! I need PeAcE in my LIFE

Give A Shit?

When I don't give a shit, you want a shit. When I give a shit, you give me a damm shit. Why should I give you a shit when you doesn't even care to give me a shit. Damm shit you; Damm you shit

All or Nothing

Perhaps I shouldn't have expect anything from beginning. I already chosen and expect nothing but you said you want to give me all. When I just about thinking to take all back, you chosen nothing to give. Are you playing me? Am I so fun to be played? Is God testing my patience? I'm not good at all in all taking all this. Please let me go, Please let it go, I need a brand new day, a brand new world, a brand new LIFE. When is someone finally has it says to help me out from the dark?

Serious or Joking?

Sometimes I really confuse with all those sarcastic smile or sarcastic words. I really don't know which expression should I give them. No expression again from me

Quiet-Diam diam

Whenever I keep quiet, it doesn't mean I do not understand. I really don't understand why it is a must for me to show expression whenever I'm listening. If I react, will it be too fake to do so? Sometimes I keep quiet because I wanted to concentrate and listen to what you are trying to say.

Whenever I keep quiet, it doesn't mean I'm BLUR. It might be I'm tired, moody and really don't have mood to show any expression to please you.

I'm not purposely to diam diam, just don't have things to say only but I'm listening

Friends

I got many friends. Many not as much as others. Maybe it is little. Somehow I feel I really don't have much friends as most of my friends don't understand me.I just don't wish my friend feel that I'm very annoying and irritating. Anything just tell me or leave me a message in friendster or facebook or just email me. Let me know

Moody-Sad-Blue

This words perhaps is very common to all my friends as these words are always shown in me. It is not common to me at all. Some friends even ask me 'Hey, I heard you say moody since few years back," Actually though the words are same from me but the definition of this words to me is always different. I wish I could tell my feeling to my friends but I don't think my story is interesting to them. So I just used this 3 words to keep things short and simple. Behind this 3 words, it lies a great unhappiness, stone, problems, and all the negative feelings. Although if I willing to tell and someone willing to listen, but how am I to repeat the same thing over and over again for the second, third, fourth, and fifth person? I will feel myself like auntie nagging around. I don't think words can tell what am I feeling. Only those who feels the same know. Those who understand do not need me to say much while those who don't understand also won't need me to tell as even I tell them, they might not understand in the end. I really don't know where to start telling also, from which parts? which problems because it is too many things inside me. To be honest, someone do not moody so easy with some little problem or with just one problem. There are many factors which cause all this. Why someone can moody for so long? I also don't know. Maybe I'm trying to escape from facing the reality? Maybe the problems I face, I never care to solve them? Maybe problems and unhappy things happened more than happy things? I wish to find out the answers to. Its not a good feeling to be moody. Its hurting, feels like living without soul. Meaningless~ . Seems that I'm born to have punishment from god. I'm appreciate some of my friends very much because they do care when I tell them that I'm moody though they might feel bored with the same old words from me.

I'm telling the TRUTH

When I'm said I'm busy, I really mean it. I'm not telling any lies but why there is nobody want to believe me? Maybe only my course mate understand me because they experienced the same thing. Sometimes I really feel frustrated with people never understand with what I said. After all, I think back, I realise I can't blame them. People might not understand you because it does not happened to the. It's hard to expect they will know what you are thinking. Even you yourself might not know what you are thinking. Actually the word 'busy' is not an excuse for me. Here is the story, to put it in simple way, I will try my best to cut it short. There are a lot of work for me to do, so I'm busy. I working on all the works and when I finish one, another two coming...That's why I'm busy. After almost complete everything, I have to give myself some rest after being so busy. The problem is, when resting, people thought I'm giving excuses as resting doesn't appear to be in busy. The thing is I need to rest so I can solve my works and no longer busy. There is always misunderstanding on this. The second part is, when I'm busy, my friends ask me out, so my schedule from tight become full. So when I say busy is because I have no free time in my schedule anymore. Here come the misunderstanding where people thought I'm giving excuses when I'm so free to hang out with friends. As conclusion, you might not understand what I'm trying to say as it is complicated and it is a real problem to me =(

Lazy or Busy?

I love blogging but at the same time, I'm too busy with assignment and working. I plan to work so I can learn more outdoor knowledge besides just studying. I know what I can learn and get from working will help me adapt with the social needs... This is what the society demanding...You have to change to adapt the society than society change because of you. Busy had become an obstacles restricting me from blogging as often as others. Someone tells me that there is nothing I can't do when I'm busy. There's is many things I can't do when I'm lazy...I'm wondering of this words