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I'm not a quiet person. If you think I am. I advise you to please use more time to find out. I'm kind of talkative if you know me well. hehe. However I make friends slow and easy to lose a friend...That's make my friend circle becoming smaller and smaller. I treasure my friend of course but just can't help in this problem. This is because I don't know how to mix with some Hi Bye friend as I can't find any topic to share with. It seems fake for me to pretend close to them which I never will do. I remember I say Hi to my friend once but he failed to recall who am I even after I try hard to remind him. I felt so embarrssing like I'm acting stupid on the street. There's also once I thought my friend was greeting me and talking to me. When I answered only I realise they are actually not asking me things nor talking to me...again feels so embarrassing. That's drove me to remain silent if I'm not sure. Sometimes my friend asking me things also I will remain silent as I thought they are not talking to me...people starting to feel I'm LCLY.

18/12/2008 > 04/01/2009 > BREAK

Today onwards is my sem break. Although it's not long as like other courses which has 3 months of holiday, it's still a period of time for me to rest and relax before going WAR zone early next year...CHARGE before energy DEAD

i'm gooD at something oK !!!

Today when I reached home, I rush to Mr. K house to help him install modem and activate Internet to help him save another MYR 88. (it's not datuk K) I guess no one is appreciating my effort. People always thought I'm a failure. I paid a lot of effort in order to help but no one knows. When they look at it, it seems that it's an easy task for me without knowing it's tough. In a HOT like OVEN living room at NOON, you feel like cooking yourself. Please oh GOD, I don't want to be xmas Turkey. I have no responsibility to help either. Why should I make myself in trouble helping and what I got is embarrassment

Final exam Feature Writing Y2S2

In the end, it's DEJAVU. Is it a curse or I reacting too slow or I'm just too dumb or maybe I'm too CALM? Why I always unable to finish answering questions in exam? I kept on reminding myself everyday and night. Even during exam, I try to keep myself stick to the allocate time for each section that I've plan but I still failed to accomplish. This is not the first time, it happened in my STPM too... can you imagine...it's STPM !!! In fact most of the paper since I'm in Year 1 Sem 1 also I experienced the same thing. I'm thinking what if I able to finish answering on time...Again I felt disappointed with myself. There's no one I can blame but me. =(

Astronaut-Mission to Star

At last I knew which company I've been selected for practical training after it became one of the hot topic for discussion. Editorial department surely will be a great challenge for me. I not really have exact idea of how's the life being a journalist. From what i heard from seniors and lecturers, there's only one word inside my mind to describe about the world of my future job-BUSY. I'm sure I'll learn a lot in this practical training as reporter are exposed to all sort of things; things that you can imagine and things that you can't imagine too. People always telling me that this job is TOUGH and now I'm going to experience it starting 5th of Jan 2009. It may be a turning point in my life...I mean what I experienced there might have a huge influence in how I decide my future.